Seeking.
Oh my god. It has been over a month since I have blogged. In fact, it’s been almost 2 months. Man, I am so ashamed of myself. Especially since I like to complain that no one blogs anymore. Truth is, I have been meaning to do this, but just never got around to it. I miss it though and I so hope I do not let myself be so forgetful again.
I almost like to think of my blog as a living entity… I’ve missed you Still Adrift…
Music: The Mamas & The Papas – Dream a Little Dream of Me
Well, I failed miserably on blogging everyday for a month, haven’t I? Got very busy, was working a lot of hours and just didn’t have time. Kinda bummed that I didn’t pull it off, but at least it wasn’t because I was being lazy and doing nothing; at least I was doing something with my time.
So, from this point forward I will try to blog everyday until the end of the year. I don’t anticipate being as busy as I have been. Guess we’ll see.
Over the weekend, my employer moved the company into a new building not too far from our old one – about 2 miles. It was a very hectic day getting settled in and making sure all of our programs, computers, phones, etc worked.
My department was actually split in two, so part of us are upstairs (me) and part are downstairs. 5 of us are upstairs sitting w/in another department, which is kind of awkward. Our cubes are also much different. Before our cubes had 4 walls and now they only have two. They are also shorter (old ones were 6 feet tall). So, between the lack of height and lack of walls, there is not much privacy. I do sit on an aisle, so that is nice…very glad that there isn’t someone sitting right behind me.
Overall, the building is very nice. They did a great job with the design. The bathrooms are kind of gross, very “outdated” compared to the newness of everything else.
It will be interesting to see how we all settle in. While part of me is kinda bummed that my department was separated, I think it will be nice for the drama factor. Only time will tell….
My two dear friends were kind enough to invite me to their son’s baby blessing today. It was a very nice service and it meant a lot to me that I was invited and was able to go.
The service closed with my friend and her family singing a few songs. Let me preface this by saying that their singing and harmony are absolutely beautiful and moving. Anyway, the last song they sang was one called Blessed Assurance. As I sat listening, I found myself recognizing the words and the melody. And once the chorus came along, I knew the words. My only way to explain this is through my grandma. She always listened to gospel music and hymns. It might be safe to say that I grew up on them.
I began to become flooded with memories of my grandma and the times we spent sitting in her bedroom listening to her gospel tapes on her little boom box. Unfortunately, and I say unfortunately because I don’t like crying in public, I started to cry. I am not a church goer, so I rarely hear gospel music or hymns anymore. Whenever I do, it tends to be a little emotional for me.
After the service was over, I also broke down in front of my friend’s mom when I told her how beautiful that song was. I feel a little embarrassed to be honest, but sometimes I guess you can’t always be in charge of and control your emotions.
Today was good. I was able to be a part of a special day for my friends and their family. And I was gently reminded of memories of my grandma.
For both, I am grateful.
This quote is on a poster that is hanging in the window of a music store in downtown Fullerton. I saw it this afternoon while walking and I had stop and take a picture. I’ve been thinking about this quote all afternoon and I can’t do anything but agree with it. For me, music makes anything better. No matter how I am feeling or the mood I am in. Something about music just hits my soul and things just seem to move on.
Much respect to all the men and women who have served, and those currently serving, in our nation’s military. The situations aren’t always ideal, but your service, loyalty and bravery mean a lot to me.
Thank you.
Sometimes I think it’s good that I’m analytical. Being able to dissect situatons, thoughts and problems can be handy. It can help bring new solutions and ideas. But, I really think, for myself, hurts more than helps. I will over think any little thing and let it eat at me for hours or days or weeks. This seems to occur the most when I am having a conversation with someone. If they don’t respond right away or I don’t get the response I was looking for, I immediately begin looking for the point where I messed up. Often, I will try to be more clear w/the person I’m speaking with to make sure they understand, or get a response out of them, and more often than not I look silly because I over analyzed the situation.
Being so introspective and in my head all the time isn’t always such a good thing. I think people would be surprised to know some of the thoughts that actually go through my head. I think I would be deemed as even more certifiable.
I wasted a considerable about of time this evening looking at my photos on Flickr. It made me realize how much I miss taking photos on a regular basis. I know I’ve mentioned this before, but I really want to do another photo project. Not sure if I want it to be a 365 one or just some other type of project. I really do want to get better at taking photos, even if it’s with my little digital camera. Now, I just need to decide what a good project would be….it’s one of those “so many choices you can’t make a decision” situations.
Music: Roy Orbison – Blue Bayou
